I watched Molly stand at the checkout in the corner Tesco, her cheeks flaming red one moment and then paling the next. She kept holding out the same crumpled £3 note, the one shed already handed over three times, while the shop assistant fixed her with a thinly veiled scowl.
Excuse me, love, but my husband only gave me £3 for groceries Molly muttered, voice barely above a whisper.
Only £3?! the assistant snapped, throwing her hands up. Youre fortyfive and you act like a child! Your husband gave you that?
Molly tried to explain, but the assistant cut her off. Ive got a line here, and youre standing there debating what to buy for £3. Just grab something and get out of my way!
Molly snatched a loaf of bread and a carton of milk, paid, and bolted out of the store. She leaned against the brick wall outside, inhaled deeply, and fought back tears. No crying in public, she reminded herself.
That evening Simon, her husband, came home in a sour mood. Id seen him stagger in from the factory, shoulders slumped, a frown set deep across his face. Molly met him at the hallway, a tote bag in hand.
Simon, dinners on the table. Ive made meatballs and potatoes, she said, trying to sound cheerful.
More fried stuff? he grumbled. My stomachs gone sour from your cooking!
You asked for meatballs yesterday, Molly replied, voice low.
Yesterday I asked! Today I change my mind! How hard is it to remember? he snapped.
Molly lowered her head and retreated to the kitchen. Simon flopped into his armchair in front of the telly.
Wheres the money? I gave you £4 this morning! he demanded.
It was £3, Simon. You gave me £3, she said, keeping her tone even.
Dont argue! I know how much I gave! he roared.
Fine, £3, Molly said, not wanting a fight. I bought bread, milk, butter. Here are the receipts.
Simon flicked through the slips. Bread for 48p? Why so pricey?
Its regular sliced loaf, love Molly tried to stay calm.
The regular one is 30p! You overpaid! Wasteful! he shouted.
She bit her lip, feeling the old sting of a fight that never really ended. The same petty quarrels over pennies, over receipts, over everything. It had become the pattern of their life.
Once, though, things had been different. Theyd met at work when Simon was appointed section manager. Handsome, confident, seemed to have it all. Hed taken an interest in Molly, a shy clerk whod been through two failed relationships. Hed asked her out for coffee.
Emma, youre delightful. How about a café tonight? hed said.
Why not, shed replied.
No talk of work, just us. I want to know you better. He was smooth, brought flowers, showered her with compliments. Molly fell for him fast; shed been waiting for someone like him for ages.
They married quicklysix months after they started dating. Emma thought shed found her forever. The first few months were blissful. Simon was attentive, caring, though he sometimes slipped in with odd, critical remarks.
Emma, that dress doesnt suit you. Too bright, hed say.
I like it, shed answer.
Its fine, but it looks gaudy. Try something grey, hed insist.
Shed change, hoping to please him.
Soon the criticism turned to the kitchen.
The soup is undersalted, hed say.
The chicken is tough, hed mutter.
The salad is weird, hed add. Emma tried to improve, bought cookbooks, watched cooking shows, yet Simon always found fault.
Then he suggested she quit her job.
Emma, why work? I earn well enough to support us.
But I enjoy my work, she replied.
Earn a few pennies there! Stay home, look after the house. The house is a mess, the food is bland. Do it properly. Hed coaxed her into resignation. At first it felt like a holidayno early alarms, everything at her own pace.
But Simon soon turned that freedom into a prison. Daily inspections, endless nitpicking.
Why is there dust on the shelf? hed ask.
Why isnt the shirt ironed properly? hed nag.
Why is dinner at one oclock instead of twelve thirty? hed demand.
Emma ran around trying to keep up, but pleasing him was impossible; there was always something to chide.
Money was the worst weapon. He gave her a fixed allowance of £3£4 a week, demanding a linebyline account of every penny spent.
Wheres the extra £2? hed ask.
Bought a bun, shed answer.
A bun? We have bread at home! hed roar. You cant just spend on sweets! Next time ask first!
Ask? As an adult, Emma now had to ask permission to buy a pastry.
She tried to find work. She went to a few interviews, but Simon would find out and explode.
You think you can just work? Wholl clean the house then? hed bark.
I can manage both, shed protest.
You wont! Youre already halfhearted! Your place is the home, not the office! hed scoff.
He barred her from seeing friends, claiming they were a bad influence.
Emma, Im going to Jennys birthday, she said one day.
Jenny? That tramp? Shes been married three times! he snapped.
Shes my friend, Emma pleaded.
Not my friend! Friends support each other, not tempt each other to run away! You wont go! he spat.
She stopped going out altogether. Invitations stopped coming; friends grew distant, confused by her sudden silence. Jenny tried to call.
Emma, whats happened to you? Youve vanished! shed say.
Just busy, Emma would answer, though she was anything but.
Jennys calls turned into scolding messages.
Emma, are you in a cult? You sound like youve joined a sect! she wrote. Maybe you haveyour husband is the guru.
Years passedfive, seven, ten. Emma became a shadow, moving silently through the house, speaking in hushed tones, avoiding eyes. The only things that kept her afloat were secret books she read, the TV programmes she watched when Simon was at the factory.
Then one afternoon, while shopping for groceries, she heard a familiar voice.
Emma? Emma, is that you? she turned. It was Jenny, her old best friend, whom she hadnt seen in eight years.
Jenny Emma managed.
Youre a sight! Where have you been? Ive been trying to call! Jenny hugged her tightly.
I I was busy, Emma stammered.
Jenny looked her over, concern in her eyes. Emma, you look pale, youre thin. Whats happened?
Emma wanted to make a joke, to deflect, but Jenny seized her hand and dragged her into a nearby café.
Sit, talk. No arguing, she said.
There, Emma spilled the gist of her life: the control, the constant criticism, the pennybypenny allowance. Jennys face grew darker with each detail.
This is domestic abuse, love. Psychological, Jenny said.
What? He never hits me, Emma protested.
It doesnt have to be physical. Hes breaking you down, controlling every step! Jenny snapped her fist on the table. Emma, wake up! Youre being treated like a servant, not a partner!
Emma felt a chill. Why had she stayed? Was it love? No, love had long since left; only habit and fear remained.
Jenny, how do I leave? I have nothing! she asked.
You have yourself! Find a job, get a place! Jenny replied. Youre a qualified accountant, remember? I have some contacts.
Within a week Jenny called with a leada junior accountant position at a small firm in Manchester. Good pay, decent hours.
Go to the interview, she said. Tell them youve been out of work due to family reasons.
Emma did exactly that, telling Simon she was just popping to the corner shop. The interview went well; the manager, a sensible man in his fifties, liked her experience and offered her a start date the following Monday.
She returned home buoyant, feeling a flutter she hadnt known in yearsfreedom, purpose, a paycheck of her own.
That night Simon came home, still in his work jacket, eyes glued to his phone.
Emma, we need to talk.
What about? she said, trying to keep her voice steady.
Ive got a job, she announced.
Silence stretched. Simon finally looked up, his face twisted.
What did you say?
Ive taken a job. Accountant. I start Monday. She stared at him.
Without my permission? he snarled.
Im an adult, Simon. I dont need your permission.
He lunged forward, his hand gripping her shoulder. You dont need permission? I said you do! Youre my wife! You should ask!
Ive already signed the contract, she replied.
He shouted, Youll quit tomorrow! Youll go back!
No, she said, a small smile forming. Enough. Ten years of putting up with your control, your nagging. Enough.
Youre revolting? he barked, shaking his head. I feed you, clothe you!
You give me three pounds a week! That barely buys bread and water! she snapped. You think Im living in luxury?
Youre a fool! he shouted. Youre fat, you wear rags, while I buy new suits every month!
I need to look decent for work! Emma retorted. Im a person too!
Simon raised his hand as if to strike, but he only swung the door shut and stormed out, the slam shaking the windows.
Emma stood in the kitchen, knees shaking, but a strange lightness filled her. For the first time in a decade shed spoken her truth.
Monday arrived, and Emma walked into the office. Simon didnt say a word, didnt stop her. He seemed to accept, perhaps waiting to see what would happen.
The office was a new worlddesks, colleagues, tasks. Emma felt out of place at first, but soon she settled in, recalling old skills and learning new software. Her coworker, Iris, a woman in her forties, became a friendly mentor.
Emma, hows it going? Iris asked one day.
Managing, though Ive forgotten a lot, Emma admitted.
Dont worry, youll pick it up fast. If you need help, just shout, Iris replied.
Her first salary arrived after a month£250. It might seem modest, but to Emma it was a fortune. She held the envelope, disbelief and pride swelling inside. Her own money, earned by her own hands.
She went to the supermarket, bought a bright new cardigan shed admired for months, a decent cut of steak, fresh vegetables, and even a small cake for no reason at all.
When Simon saw the bags, his face soured.
Whats all this? he demanded.
Just groceries and a new coat, Emma said calmly.
How did you afford it? he asked, eyes narrowing.
I got paid, she answered.
He dug into the coat, inspecting it. Thats £15? Wasteful! I told you to save!
Its my money. I earned it, she said.
Its not yours! Its our money! Everything is shared! he shouted.
Then yours is also shared. Lets split it, Emma replied.
Simon fell silent, realizing his control slipping away.
Weeks turned into months. Emma grew more confident. She enjoyed lunches with Iris, afterwork drinks, weekend trips to the seaside. Simon grumbled about those babbling friends, but he could no longer dictate her life.
One evening, after a particularly heavy argument, Simon, drunk and angry, grabbed her arm.
Where have you been? he shouted.
At work, overtime, Emma said.
Youre lying! Who were you seeing? he yelled.
Youre drunk, Simon. Go to bed, she replied, trying to keep her voice level.
Youre cheating! Admit it! he bellowed.
Im not cheating! Im not with anyone! Emma shouted back. He shoved her hard; she hit the wall, pain flashing through her. As she looked into his enraged eyes, she realized staying would only bring more bruises, more fear.
Im done, she whispered, voice steady.
Done what? he sneered.
This marriage. Im leaving, she said, gathering her courage.
Where will you go? You have nothing! he mocked.
I have a job, I have money. Ill rent a flat, she replied.
He laughed, You wont survive a week without me!
Ill survive, she said, stepping toward the hallway. She reached for her suitcase, began packing her belongings.
What are you doing at eleven at night? Simon asked, his tone a mixture of disbelief and anger.
Im staying with Jenny. She said I could crash at her place, Emma answered.
The slut again? he spat.
Shes not a slut. Shes my friend who helped me when I was at my lowest, Emma replied, closing the suitcase.
Simon lunged, trying to stop her. Dont go! he shouted. Ill change, I promise!
How many times have you promised that? Twenty? Thirty? Emma asked. Now? No more.
She shoved his hand away, walked out, and the stairs creaked beneath her feet. Simon followed, shouting, Emma! Youll regret this!
Maybe, she said, stepping out onto the cold October street. The wind bit at her cheeks. For the first time in ten years she felt genuinely free.
She called Jenny.
Jenny, can I come over? Ive left Simon, she said, voice trembling.
Come right away! Im waiting, Jenny replied. When Emma arrived, Jenny held her and let her cry. Youre finally out, Emma! Im so proud of you, she said.
Emma stayed with Jenny for a week, then rented a small studio flat in Manchestercozy, modest, but wholly hers. No one told her what to buy, what to eat, when to sleep. She could finally breathe.
Simon called in the first weeks, pleading, promising change. Then the calls turned to threats.
Youll regret this! Youll be alone forever! he warned.
Emma blocked his number, deleted him from all apps. She didnt want his voice to creep back into her mind.
At work, colleagues noticed the change.
Emma, you look refreshed! Youre glowing, Iris said one morning.
Really? Emma smiled. Ive been sleeping better.
She started looking after herselfnew clothes, a haircut, manicures. Small joys shed forgotten.
The manager later offered her a promotion.
Emma, the senior accountant position is opening. Would you like to apply? he asked.
Its a big step, but Ill try, she replied.
She earned £3,500 a monthstill modest, but a massive jump for her. She moved into a larger flat, bright walls, fresh flowers, a kitchen she could finally claim as her own.
A year after the split, she ran into Simon on the street. He looked older, gaunter, a hint of regret in his eyes.
Emma, he said, how are you?
Fine. You? she replied.
Married again, he replied, a forced smile.
Congrats, Emma said, polite but distant.
He tried to ask for coffee. Maybe we could talk?
No thanks, she said, turning away.
Now, more than a year later, Emma occasionally thinks back to those ten oppressive years. She remembers the fear of leaving, the belief that she couldnt survive alone. She now knows she could.
She has new friendsJenny visits, they sip tea late into the night, laughing over old stories. Iris and the rest of the office are like a second family. She sometimes meets a gentleman named Andrew, a fiftyyearold who shares a love of classic literature. He asked her out for a movie, just as friends. Shes not sure where that will lead, but she likes that she can decide.
Emma knows there will be lonely moments, days when sadness creeps in. But its a gentle sadness, not the suffocating dread she once lived with. She enjoys the simple pleasures: a steaming mug of tea in her favorite mug, a walk through the park, a good book before bed. Freedom to choose.
When she finally hauled her suitcase out the front door, she thought her life was ending. Instead, it was just beginningreal, full, and unmistakably hers. Shes grateful for the courage that finally let her pick herself first.
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